Ficlet: "Disconnect" 1/1 Dominic Monaghan

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Title: "Disconnect"
Author: Brenda
Pairing: Dominic Monaghan
Summary: Memories fade.
Website: Broadwriting
Feedback: Yes, please.
Disclaimer: Never happened.
Notes: For gabbyhope. Because I miss him, too.


"So let it go
And so fade away"
-- U2


"Oh, you've got a tattoo there," she says, shower-damp, still gloriously nude. She peers up at him with Barbie-wide eyes. "Didn't notice it last night."

"Yeah." He smirks, makes a show of flexing. He slings his towel around her neck, draws her in for an open-mouthed, wet kiss, sliding his tongue into new territory. "Tats turn you on, do they?" he asks when he lifts his head.

"This one's just a bit unusual." Coral-painted nails trace the delicate lettering. "What's it mean?"

He shrugs out of her touch, smiles in apology. "Just something we all got at the end of the "Rings" shoot."

"Male bonding thing, then."

"Yeah," he says softly, glancing at the tattoo's reflection in the mirror. She steps up behind him, chin resting on his shoulder. He likes her because she's delicate, soft. Shorter than he is. Didn't ask a lot of him last night except his name, what movies he'd done. And an invitation to his bed. "Way of remembrance."

"Think it's sweet. That you guys all got one."

"Yeah." Dom can't tear his eyes away from the tattoo. He remembers -- dim, thick, as if through glass or fog -- laughter in a brightly lit tattoo parlor on the other side of the world. Remembers Elijah screaming like a girl between high-pitched giggles. Remembers Orlando's wide-eyed enthusiasm, Viggo's stoic acceptance, Billy and Astin's running commentary to Bean, promising that they'd all find him, force him to get his done. Remembers the first stab of the needle under his skin, smiling at everyone, so in love with the movie, the world, them -- his brothers, his comrades -- that he'd thought he could have died right then and there and been utterly fucking happy.

He tries to recall the feeling now. Frowns when it won't come.

"You still see the others, don't you?" she asks, smoothing her hands across his ribcage. "Remember hearing that you all were still tight."

"Yeah, sometimes. Not as much as we'd like." Tries to remember the last time he'd talked to Bean. To Orlando. To Karl or Bernard. Ah, well, they're all busy. Comes with the territory. Life brings change, and he's made a new incredible life for himself. New opportunities. New friends. And he still keeps in touch with Lij and Billy, right? And Viggo, of course. He still remembers.

"What're you thinking?" she asks, and he meets her eyes in the mirror.

"Just wondering if I should let my hair grow back out," he lies. "Like it used to be."

"Why? I like it just fine," she smiles. "It's very chic. Very L.A."

"Yeah," he smiles, throat tight for a split second. "Yeah, it is, isn't it?"

***

Comments

[gabbyhope.livejournal.com]

You choked me up, damn you.

[azewewish.livejournal.com]

sorry, love. *cuddles*

[poisondreams.livejournal.com]

I loved this. You really seem to get into the Dom's head. *hugs*

[thalassatx.livejournal.com]

Oh wow. That's aching.

[cloisonne.livejournal.com]

That was beautiful. So aching and sad, you can feel him feel the loss, but know that there's nothing to be done about it. Just beautiful.

[gracexsketches.livejournal.com]

first off...that's one of my favorite U2 songs ever that you quoted there. secondly...*sigh* lovely fic. i might be slightly nostaligic for the rest of the night, too, but that's not really a bad thing.

[airgiodslv.livejournal.com]

Darling...I loved this so much that I forgot it was you. Which may not sound like much of a compliment, but it is meant as such. An incredible compliment. This is just stunning.

[donella.livejournal.com]

Very nice. Not many people write from Dom's POV convincingly, but you seem to do it well. Congrats. Wishing I was that girl.

[cincodemaygirl.livejournal.com]

WAH!


*wibble*

[cupiscent.livejournal.com]

oh

That's so melancholic. This sort of thing, it's inevitable, isn't it, and I can so see Dom being the one to whom it's happening most, or first, or he's the one who's especially brooding on it for so many reasons, all of which you've just gathered together with the barest intimation here. It's so gently real it's just...

*sniffle*

Move on, move on, nothing to see here...

[dellastarr.livejournal.com]

Oh B, how do you do it? Don't answer, I want that mystery to happen EVERY time I read one of your stories!

After what we talked about last night about our Dommie, and then to read this. You make me cry.

This really got to me in a way that I wouldn't ever expect from this little het piece.

Really puts Dommie in my head.... nice way to end the day. Find our boy and... Find our boy and help him find his way.

[dellastarr.livejournal.com]

I left a comment... but it was swallowed into some LJ black hole.

Let me see if I can reconstruct this....

I don't know what I would do without your writing. Considering what we spoke of last night in reference to Dommie.... this is all the more poignant.

I keep thinking about Dommie and want him to find his way.

My hope is that you will get the other LJ, being angry at LJ is not as inspiring as the immediacy of writing through tears after reading a wonderful piece.

Dom is in my head now.... not bad that.

[stellahobbit.livejournal.com]

Sad and sweet - but beautifully written. Thank you :-)

[lillywhite1.livejournal.com]

So very sad. I know it may actually happen, too. What a terrible guilt to have in the back of your mind that you never tried hard enough to keep your friends close. *sigh*

[littlegreenleaf.livejournal.com]

This was so lovely, it nearly made me cry. I didn't even think of it in terms of a het piece, or even a slash piece, for that matter.

I thought of it as being this incredible drabble that is most likely what's going on in many of the fellowship's hearts right now.

And I'm so glad that they got that tatoo to remember.

[daisy-duckling.livejournal.com]

Nothing to add really, it's all been said in the comments above... Just wanted to say I read this and liked it very much. Beautiful. Thanks.